Steak Panini

FB_IMG_1459013267081Yesterday we were sent home from work early due to a bomb threat at work. I work in construction and all the trades were sent home until the threat was neutralized.

Being around lunch time and after we were able to exit the underground parking, I called my fiancee and told her I was able to get out of the building safely and nothing bad happened. She then asked me if I wanted to pick her up from work and get lunch together. I excitingly said yes and told her I was going to call her when I was outside of her workplace.

When I picked her up we went to a place called Vincentina Fine Foods in Woodbridge to have a delicious steak panini. The drive there was nice. We talked about our day as we were holding hands and just joking around. We had to park further away because the place was busy and parking was scarce, but we both don’t mind walking far. I had my arm around her walking from the truck to the store and it was just a nice feeling to be with her; to be in the moment.

Even though we’ve pretty much lived together since we started dating, have a daughter, and deal with different obstacles “married” life brings, we still enjoy each other’s company. We still love “dating” each other. I for one love our dates. Every time we have a date coming up I tell her one of the things I look forward to is just putting my arms around her and just being together.

Many people will say that when you’re with somebody for a long period of time you just get “comfortable” around each other and the spark is gone. I think that’s false. I think people confuse being comfortable with being complacent in a relationship. Many people get complacent in the relationship thinking they don’t have to try anymore. They don’t think it’s important to proactively do the same things they did for each other when they began dating.

Being complacent makes you takes things for granted. Be comfortable with each other, but don’t be complacent towards each other


Happy good wife. Happy Great Life

20160407_164535This past weekend, my fiancee and I got into an argument on our way to our wedding ring workshop (which will be blogged about in a later post).

As mentioned in my first blog, I’ll admit when I’m wrong and I will apologize and make amends when I’m at fault. This past weekend was no exception. The argument was again because of some bottled up feelings I’ve been having; some more frustrations about “time”.

My asshole self thought I wasn’t getting enough time to do everything what I wanted. My asshole self wanted more. So I exploded during this argument in a way I’m embarrassed to even think about it.

So the day went on after our fight and we both made our wedding rings, picked up our daughter, went home, and proceeded getting things ready for first work day of the week.

At work on Monday, my partner says to me I look depressed and I told him my fiancee and I got into a fight and the reason I was sad at work was because I made my fiancee sad by hurting her feelings. I was sad because I made a good woman cry. I told my co-worker “I’m a fucking asshole. The reason we fought was because I am selfish. She gives me more than enough time to do everything I want and she gives me a happy life, yet I still wanted more.”

I realized the reason why I felt like I didn’t have enough time was not because I didn’t have time, but because I wanted to fill my plate with more things than I should’ve. I wanted to do EVERYTHING. I wanted to do this, do that, do more of this and so on and so forth. I didn’t prioritize and I wanted to accomplish many things. I frustrated myself. I made myself go past my own tipping point.

Needless to say I called my fiancee after work and I apologized and I admitted how much of a selfish asshole I was. I thanked her for giving me more than enough time to do the things I want to do. For giving me room to grow as a person.

There’s the saying “Happy wife. Happy life.” But I think it should be “Happy good wife. Happy great life.” When a good wife is sad, you, the husband will be sad. Not because your wife will make your life a living hell, but because deep down you’ll feel what you did was wrong and it’ll eat you up inside. It’ll weigh down on your conscience and that’s what will make you sad. It’ll make you hurt more than physical pain because the hurt you feel deep down inside is that guilt you have from hurting a good wife.

So fellas, if you have a good wife who treats you well and always looks out for your well being, don’t make them sad. Don’t be a selfish asshole. You both have needs and wants and there’s a pretty good chance she does more than enough to accommodate yours. Be appreciative. Be thankful for what you have instead of what you don’t have. Dwelling on what you don’t have will just make you  greedy, selfish, and mostly, a huge asshole to your wife.

Spit and Swallow :)

Almost a month ago I went through one of my grumpy phases for about a week. My asshole self would be rude and agitated every time my fiancee would ask me something or even just try to talk to me about something.

This went on for a few days until eventually she had enough and said “What’s your problem?! Just SPIT out what’s on your mind!”. As soon as she said that, I quickly realized she was right and I was being my old Mr. Flanders self holding things in and eventually blowing up like in that episode where he just one day snaps at everyone. I thought to myself, “I shouldn’t be treating my future wife like this!”. She was right. If I have something bothering me, I should just be able to SPIT it out and we should be able to talk things out. The thing that was bothering me was something as simple as our time management when it came to divvying up who gets to train, workout, get some ‘me’ time, and just unwind. Something so simple, if bottled up can lead to a blowout. An unnecessary Mr. Flanders type of blowout.

So after realizing how much of an ass-hat I was. I had to SWALLOW my pride and apologize. When it comes to my fiancee and future wife, I can SWALLOW my pride as soon as I realize I am wrong and apologize. The old me wouldn’t and would keep fighting and not give a shit about her feelings. But no other woman completes and complements my life like her and since I know what I have, I know what to do to keep her. When you know how good you have it, you’ll work at it and change for the better.

If you’re with a person who you think is going to talk with you about what’s bothering you and help you find a solution to that problem, you should be able to just SPIT out what’s on your mind and if they’re as good as you think they are, then they’ll be understanding enough to find ways to make things work for both of you. And when you’re being an ass-hat for being snappy and rude SWALLOW your pride, apologize for being wrong, and work together to find a solution.

SPIT out what’s on your mind.

SWALLOW your pride and apologize .